I couldn't understand the content of the Osho Zen cards back then. I like Osho's works, but I still couldn't understand the books on Osho Zen cards. I tried to match the four elements with the wind, fire, earth, and water of the Zen cards. Fire and water were easy to understand, but I couldn't figure out which element, wind or earth, corresponded to, clouds or rainbows respectively. Because earth is a concrete element, and the most likely one is the rainbow, but rainbows are intangible! Although I've read many of Osho's books, my mind just couldn't grasp it at that time. But I think the Osho Zen cards are beautiful, so I still collected them. In 2002, my second cat, Armanl, passed away before she was even a year old. I couldn't smile for six months. It was because of Armanl that I embarked on the path of mysticism. Cats are the softest spot in my heart. Later, in 2007, my first cat, Guji, passed away. I was heartbroken. One day, I missed them so much that I took out the Osho Zen Cards again. This time, I drew the Eight of Water, "Letting Go." If it were the Eight of Cups from Waite-Thoth, it would be hard to explain, but the Zen Card "Letting Go" told me that the cat had returned to its original source. It had returned to where it belonged and had not disappeared. I took out the Osho Zen Cards and spread them out. It was amazing; the moment I spread them out, everything that had been puzzling me before became clear. I realized that a rainbow is white light reflecting seven colors, symbolizing the myriad aspects of life. Our lives are reality, but after life ends, nothing remains except the soul and memories. Therefore, the cards represent earth element experiences. Experiences can only be experienced by the physical body. The most important thing in life isn't what we leave behind, but what we experience—our work, our performance, something only the physical body can create. Indeed, it's the earth element. Clouds are what block out the sunlight, what Osho often called the "mind." Having a mind makes one intelligent, but it only hinders seeing the truth. My later book, *Osho Zen Card Divination*, was also a product of the mind, but the mind is like a ladder, helping us climb to higher places. Just as having words and knowledge helps us understand more and reach our origin, then we no longer need a ladder. The ladder is the brain. We can not be attached to the brain, but we cannot be without it. We must transcend the brain, not be without it. Then I began teaching the Osho Zen Cards and started using the brain as this ladder. Looking back now, I often say I don't have a sixth sense, but this sudden realization might also be a manifestation of a guiding spirit.